深夜
為你重新留下淚滴
為我自己再度歎息
Self-pity
我憎恨的那一種心情
Something that should never be
A part of me
我希望 飛離地面的那一天
Will soon arrive
So that I may finally
伸手
Touch the sky.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Summer time!
It's been a whole month since I've updated my blog. Nay, it's been a month and a half. Oh gasp.
I feel the need to practice my Chinese so I shall write my entry in it:)
過去一整個月只能用四個字來形容: 昏天黑地。從一開始的充滿信心到最後的隨便亂猜，我和McGill的同志們（i.e fellow students)共同奮鬥了一個半月。每天的伙食費讓我的生活開支表上劃上紅字；在沒有時間準備食物的情況下，我每天只能叫外賣或著吃McGill Pizza的heart-disease-inducing poutine(a.k.a. putin or poo-tin: a local delicate; made from drowning old french fries in fatty gravy and cheap cheese)。
我並不想要sound like a whiny little kid,因為其實有的吃就應該滿足了，但是這樣的日子可真不宜久過。
現在考試結束了，我的第一個目標就是要恢復正常睡眠習慣。考試期間平均是早上五點半睡，下午一點起床（效率上其實沒差，真不懂幹嘛把自己搞得這麼不健康）。第二個目標是健身（不只要求健康，更要有一個強健的體格，讓我回台灣的時候不會被媽媽一直念:"做扶地挺身！怎麼都沒胸肌，看起來好weak!")第三是要好好上summer school,絕不蹺課，絕不早退，遲到ｏｋ，只要能追上進度就好！
當然，這個暑假我要重新的規劃自己的人生。要走怎樣的路，要有什麼樣的前途，要在哪個國家永久居留等，我要盡力規劃好自己的未來。當然，這個暑假最最重要的課題就是要重新建立我跟神的關係，我的信仰和我的思想。我承認，在過去的一個月（或過去兩年）我的靈命只有走下坡的份，而且我並沒有放太多心思在它身上。我知道這會是我的絆腳石，that is, if I don't get this part of me figured out, no matter how successful I become, I will not be happy. And not being happy still constitutes as a fail. 我可不想fail in life.
anyhow,
很想念我的家人。今天下午會跟大姊一家skype!我很look forward to it:)
James
I feel the need to practice my Chinese so I shall write my entry in it:)
過去一整個月只能用四個字來形容: 昏天黑地。從一開始的充滿信心到最後的隨便亂猜，我和McGill的同志們（i.e fellow students)共同奮鬥了一個半月。每天的伙食費讓我的生活開支表上劃上紅字；在沒有時間準備食物的情況下，我每天只能叫外賣或著吃McGill Pizza的heart-disease-inducing poutine(a.k.a. putin or poo-tin: a local delicate; made from drowning old french fries in fatty gravy and cheap cheese)。
我並不想要sound like a whiny little kid,因為其實有的吃就應該滿足了，但是這樣的日子可真不宜久過。
現在考試結束了，我的第一個目標就是要恢復正常睡眠習慣。考試期間平均是早上五點半睡，下午一點起床（效率上其實沒差，真不懂幹嘛把自己搞得這麼不健康）。第二個目標是健身（不只要求健康，更要有一個強健的體格，讓我回台灣的時候不會被媽媽一直念:"做扶地挺身！怎麼都沒胸肌，看起來好weak!")第三是要好好上summer school,絕不蹺課，絕不早退，遲到ｏｋ，只要能追上進度就好！
當然，這個暑假我要重新的規劃自己的人生。要走怎樣的路，要有什麼樣的前途，要在哪個國家永久居留等，我要盡力規劃好自己的未來。當然，這個暑假最最重要的課題就是要重新建立我跟神的關係，我的信仰和我的思想。我承認，在過去的一個月（或過去兩年）我的靈命只有走下坡的份，而且我並沒有放太多心思在它身上。我知道這會是我的絆腳石，that is, if I don't get this part of me figured out, no matter how successful I become, I will not be happy. And not being happy still constitutes as a fail. 我可不想fail in life.
anyhow,
很想念我的家人。今天下午會跟大姊一家skype!我很look forward to it:)
James
Monday, March 15, 2010
It's been a while...
I've procrastinated for a whole month without updating my blog. My apologies.
Life was hectic for the whole month of February. Lots of emotional roller coasters. My academic performance met constant disappointments. Pressure from peers didn't motivate me either; instead, I felt defeated many times because my test scores didn't meet the average.
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Yesterday after church I bumped into this random guy. He told me he's been a devoted christian before he met his first girlfriend. He got engaged at the age of 18, but she left him for another guy. So the dude I met said that he went "a little crazy" afterwards. He started to live a more "worldly" life, and then his parents, being the strict and fanatic orthodox they are, kicked him out of the house. The poor dude started to wonder around, and he decided to leave the city and get as far away as possible. He left for boston two weeks ago, and he arrived in montreal last friday.
I felt so bad for him and wanted to cry when I heard his story. It wasn't like he wanted any help but I wanted to offer my place for him to stay but I felt that it's not a safe thing to do (obviously). But sometimes someone has to break the rule and take some risks. I wonder what Ba Ma would tell me to do..I wonder what I would tell my children if they're in the same situation. Hmmm.
Ps: midterm went okay today. A huge essay due tmr but I'm done with it. Time to catch up with family, deal with club stuffs, upload a few songs and pursue my dreams:)
James
Life was hectic for the whole month of February. Lots of emotional roller coasters. My academic performance met constant disappointments. Pressure from peers didn't motivate me either; instead, I felt defeated many times because my test scores didn't meet the average.
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Yesterday after church I bumped into this random guy. He told me he's been a devoted christian before he met his first girlfriend. He got engaged at the age of 18, but she left him for another guy. So the dude I met said that he went "a little crazy" afterwards. He started to live a more "worldly" life, and then his parents, being the strict and fanatic orthodox they are, kicked him out of the house. The poor dude started to wonder around, and he decided to leave the city and get as far away as possible. He left for boston two weeks ago, and he arrived in montreal last friday.
I felt so bad for him and wanted to cry when I heard his story. It wasn't like he wanted any help but I wanted to offer my place for him to stay but I felt that it's not a safe thing to do (obviously). But sometimes someone has to break the rule and take some risks. I wonder what Ba Ma would tell me to do..I wonder what I would tell my children if they're in the same situation. Hmmm.
Ps: midterm went okay today. A huge essay due tmr but I'm done with it. Time to catch up with family, deal with club stuffs, upload a few songs and pursue my dreams:)
James
Saturday, January 30, 2010
CHC
I'm listening to City Harvest's Live Webcast right now. I feel that things have changed a lot since I left Singapore. By things I mean my personality and my passion towards Christianity. I feel that I am growing more and more weary towards my faith and I am becoming more apathetic towards those around me.
I still remember the story I used to listen to from 孫越叔叔說故事. The story's called 做在最小的身上. In a nutshell the moral of the story is to encourage people to care for those who are less fortunate and those who are poor both materialistically and spiritually. But right now I feel that the moral of the story is too far fetched and that human selfishness can never be conquered by mere education. Knowing that there are people less fortunate than ourselves doesn't mean that we will take any action and change the situation.
Right now the pastor in the CHC Webcast is declaring, "to a year of abundance!" I feel strange about this. How can he be declaring those words when there are disasters all over the world? Aren't Christians supposed to focus on other things other than their own well-being?
But then again I guess it's part of human nature for people to always focus on themselves. It doesn't matter whether you are a believer or not.
Rant of the day:
Garsh I am so tired. There was another MASSA event today. I wish extra curricular stuffs can be over soon. Argh two days away from my first midterm. I guess tomorrow will be spent in the library. ARGHH I NEED SOME REST! I want to go back to Taiwan:( (or Boston, or even Singapore. Or even...SF? =D)
I still remember the story I used to listen to from 孫越叔叔說故事. The story's called 做在最小的身上. In a nutshell the moral of the story is to encourage people to care for those who are less fortunate and those who are poor both materialistically and spiritually. But right now I feel that the moral of the story is too far fetched and that human selfishness can never be conquered by mere education. Knowing that there are people less fortunate than ourselves doesn't mean that we will take any action and change the situation.
Right now the pastor in the CHC Webcast is declaring, "to a year of abundance!" I feel strange about this. How can he be declaring those words when there are disasters all over the world? Aren't Christians supposed to focus on other things other than their own well-being?
But then again I guess it's part of human nature for people to always focus on themselves. It doesn't matter whether you are a believer or not.
Rant of the day:
Garsh I am so tired. There was another MASSA event today. I wish extra curricular stuffs can be over soon. Argh two days away from my first midterm. I guess tomorrow will be spent in the library. ARGHH I NEED SOME REST! I want to go back to Taiwan:( (or Boston, or even Singapore. Or even...SF? =D)
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Stressed.
Quite a few things to do...I don't even know where to begin.
I am at my wit's end and I feel like everything will crumble.
I am at my wit's end and I feel like everything will crumble.
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